Crying

Crying is good. It's a good way to release a lot of tension and it helps a lot in the grieving process. I cried every day for over a month and then I became addicted to crying. I HAD to cry every single day in order to stay connected to him from the day he passed away. One night I was so tired I forgot to cry. And while I think this is a selfish thing, I am glad I forgot. It meant I didn't have to bring up thinking about his death every night and cry about it. It meant I didn't have to dig out the card from the vet, read it and cry. Now I cry at least once a week. It ends up being more like three or four times a week. Sometimes by myself while lying in bed. And sometimes I cuddle with my Mommy and I cry and talk about him. I think both of those are important. When I cry alone I talk to Lila (in Heaven) and feel better. But it is also the reason why I cry sometimes too.